My old door

I feel your presence behind that door 
I don't want to believe it 
But when i hear your voice 
I'm sure, it was you 
Then I wait for you to knock it 
But thousand second has gone 
And I didn't hear any knocking 

I spent every second in my time 
I began feel worry 
Are you still there? 
Standing in front of my door 
Still hoping that door knocked by you 

One day I heard some weird voice 
But that's not your voice 
I'm curious what is in there 
But I have no courage to open that door 
Then I try to spy from the window 
But a bad circumstance that I see 

Really, really annoying 
I hate for having this feeling 
I hate for being falling 
I hate for being trapped 
I hate this all 
I regret once I look at from the window 

I regret I've ever expecting you 
Maybe I’m in over hope 
Maybe I’ve think some mistake 
Maybe you never intend to knock it 
Maybe you just layover for a moment 
Just for take shelter from the sun 
Or just for take shelter from the rain 
I don’t know what exactly happen 
I've trapped in this isolated room 
And I’ve locked in this room for a long time 

I let that door in the silent 
I don’t want to touch nor clean it 
If I can I want to destroy it 
But I realize I have another part in my life 
A part that more important than that 
I wanna make sure that part is alright 
I'm like a fool just because of love 
And now I realize it's not the time yet 
As long as I still can’t find the reason 
Why I have this feeling 
Let that door lock for awhile

10 April 2015